With the wonderful news from several friends of mine that they are expecting, and the fast approaching due dates of several others, it seems baby fever may be setting in. We find ourselves in quite the mix of emotions, especially as of recent.
For the record, no we are not expecting again currently.
The announcements, and pending due dates have not been the only triggers. Seeing our daughter’s first birthday come and go was huge. Our little baby no more, she is a toddler (though it seems we can hold off on that title until 18+ months) especially with how mobile she is. Recently we did another purge of her closet to remove the items she has suddenly outgrown because of a growth spurt. This meant pulling out the newborn and other little items that have been put away for some time, and getting to look through them again. This really started the day dreams of holding a sweet, bright pink, and covered in wrinkles and rolls little one.
My husband and I have discussed a few times our timeline for when we would like to have children. We have also talked about what sort of age gap we’d like. My sisters and I are all very close in age, where as my husband and his brother have a bigger age gap. Then there is the topic of how many children. 1, 2, 3… skip a few… a dozen? What about adoption?
Needless to say there is lots of stuff running through our minds, and on our hearts right now. Lots to think about, and to pray about.
We look forward to the day when our daughter will have a best friend for life. Sure they may fight at times, but who doesn’t have those moments with their sibling? We of course want to see them be near and dear to each other. We are excited by the thought of another child that is the perfect blend of each of us. A child that is fearfully, and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:13-14
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
We are also full of some worry, and fear. What if we we cannot get pregnant again? What if we suffer another miscarriage? We ponder about what it will be like with a second child. Will we be able to smoothly transition into life with a newborn again, and an older child who also demands and should get our full attention too? How do you make sure that each child that enters our lives knows they are oh so very much loved by us?
Really, it seems to be a lot of the same thoughts and emotions we had when we started thinking about, talking about, and praying about the first time round. For now we do know that we really want to heap our love on our daughter, and get to know her and the person she is. We also know if we were to find out in the near or distant future that we are expecting again we will be elated. We trust God and His perfect timing for our future as a family. 